Down the rabbit hole....

I'm so tired from my visit to Charleston. I am also dehydrated and need to go to the grocery store but I'm going to put that off since it's so late now. I did manage to make it to the gym today and I am serious about getting back on track in that area. This afternoon I watched The Family Stone with SJP. It was a good film and made me cry! It is a Christmas movie and now I am looking forward to Christmas.

I had a lot of fun this weekend. J and I went to a rooftop bar on Friday evening (after her mom cooked us a delicious meal). It was very chic...good times. Saturday we went to IHOP for breakfast, went and relaxed on the beach (I saw a jelly fish while there - are they following me now?), met up with an old friend for late lunch/early dinner, and went to a Halloween party at the Plex. The theme was Pirates of the Scaribbean. There were some amazing creative costumes and a lot of pirate wench hos. We sat in the VIP area. I was happy with the way my Alice costume turned out. J made the cutest bee ever. More pics to come soon! Halloween is the best!!

Spooky Playlist

Ghostbusters - Ray Parker Jr.

Thriller - Michael Jackson

Replay

Today is another rainy day. I actually LOVE rain. I love to watch it, I love to listen to it fall...I just don't love making it to class in the rain. Today I went with a more weather friendly hairstyle and wore my hair curly.

A few friends and I went to Delaney's in 5 Points for lunch after class. Okay, let me be totally honest here, the prof was not there and had his t.a. showing some really boring video of a person giving a lecture so we ducked out. I had a pint of Amstel Light with my lunch. Ahhh how I love Amstel Light. And it is all the much better in the middle of a rainy school afternoon. I have great friends. Especially my friend S - she is a sweetheart. Just an observation, but isn't it weird how a when there is a group of people drinking the mood can go from happy and upbeat to pensive and sad quickly? Today the conversation drifted to relationships...I talked about my former love before Shawn, other people talked about stuff and all of a sudden the mood had really shifted. I still had an amazing time though.

The rest of the day is just classes for me...

Have a great one!

Playlist

Rain - Patty Griffin

Rain Keeps Fallin' On My Head....

It's a rainy day here in the city. I don't much care - except my hair was so beautiful and sleek and glossy this morning before I got caught in it.

Here's a list for today

1. I read about the cold case that had been re-opened in Anchorage, AL online and now I am facinated with it. Apparently the woman who commited the murder around 10 years ago got the idea from a movie plot. Now I must see the movie. The movie she used as inspiration is The Last Seduction (1994). At any rate, I'm glad she got caught all these years later and impressed with the justice system. With any luck A & E will do a show on it that I can watch. Crime shows are the best. I watched one as a fell asleep last night, but it gave me nightmares and I did not sleep well.

2. I put on my cap and gown today. I hope my hair grows some before graduation.

3. Shawn said his step mom wants to throw me a graduation party. Yay! That would be fun. Their home is beautiful. Of course my two blog readers will be invited.

4. I have some weird sore place on the top of my left leg. Swollen lymph node? Pulled muscle from practing dance while babysitting? I don't know. All I do know is it is painful and the pain is spreading down and around.

These gorgeous photos of San Fran were taken by a friend of mine over fall break. I think she has a job all lined up....so far I don't but I may send out more resumes this afternoon, depending on what's going on at work. I'm still hoping I can line something up for myself. And of course, there is always nursing school I can go back to. I would love to move to San Fran or NYC or Texas, I really would. Honestly, knowing myself I just don't have to courage. There's Shawn and I don't see me wanting to move away from him and the fact that I am very close to my Mom and don't want to be far away from her. I do sometimes wish a turn of fate would land me in a great city, but more than likely I will be living near home after graduation.

Have a great day!

Playlist

Everyday I Write the Book - Elvis Costello

Almost Halloween!

It's almost Halloween, yay! My big weekend w/ J in Charleston is fast approaching. Can't wait to wear my Alice costume.

Last night I decided against going home last night to register at TCTC this morning. If I decide I do want to persue nursing, registration will just have to wait. Maybe I can make it up there next week. After the game and going out in 5 Points Saturday and then a day full of babysitting yesterday I was beat. And had a huge basket of laundry waiting on me.

The girl child I babysat had taken dance so we had a little mock dance class....warm ups, barre work, and of course dancing. I am sore today. Today I also plan on going back to the gym, I haven't been in two weeks since I have been sickly. I did find out I had lost a little weight when I went to the doctor though.

I have to head to work now. Tonight: watching the Bachelor w/ my girls!

worth 1000 words

this is yesterday. The first photo is the hilarious and gorgeous C that I used to live with. The others are my with AM. Today I am tired and ate Applebee's leftovers which made my stomach feel funny, but I'm off to babysitting!

Crank Dat - Soulja Boy

Moving Slowly

I am moving so slowly this morning. 12:30 Kickoffs are just too early! I need to eat breakfast, shower, put on makeup, get dressed and make it out to tailgate. I feel exhausted...from the school week, from the situation I think may or may not be going on at home, from my bout of bronchitis....

Tomorrow AM and I are babysitting A BUNCH of kids.

And I may still need to come register and reenroll in TCTC Monday morning. I have Pell for this year which should cover the one class I need to take at TCTC in spring so the way I see it is :

1. I don't have a job lined up right now, but can continue to look now and while I am taking one class at TCTC in the spring

2. Just b/c I reenroll and put my name on the list and take the class I need in spring dosen't mean I am comitted to doing this (which may be the wrong attitute) I can still look for a job and continue to really think about if nursing is right for me

3. About the earliest I would be able to start clinicals (due to competitive admission I may be able to cut down the wait time) would be fall semester of '08 so I still have plenty of time to search my options (job wise) and think about what I want my career path to be

4. As I mentioned above, for the class in spring semester I won't be out any money. Probably just my text book is what I would pay for. Not bad at all!

I will have plenty of time to search my options and think about my options and I won't be out anything for taking the class. The way I see it I have nothing to lose. And even if I freak out again like I did last time I was supposed to begin clinicals taking the class I need won't have been a waste. As dorky as this sounds I think learning something is never a waste.

Maybe I am incredibly immature for my age...an arrested adolescent...among my friends those that I graduated high school w/ are long through w/ college and all in their carreers, my friends here are all set on what they want to do after graduation. Then there's me who is about to graduate and still not 100% what I would like to do.

Nursing is a really good profession for several reasons. You can work in a lot of areas and many settings. You can work in the hospital or if you prefer 9-5 you can work for a doctor in a private practice. You will be helping and healing people on a daily basis. You can make good money do it!And I am good w/ my hands and enjoy doing things that use my hands.

On the other hand, it can be high stress and if you make a mistake you can kill a person. WOW.

I have got to get the surgery on my ankle. Right now it is tender to the touch. Eow!

These pics are Addison Claire (Addie) just cause she's so effin cute! She's the one we found this summer. Needless to say, my family is keeping her.

This song makes me think of fall for some reason and my old roommate J. We played it all the time the first year we lived together (2002/2003). Time flies b/c that dosen't seem like long ago.

Dancing in the Moonlight - King Harvest

Yay for Friday...

Glad today is Friday....just got out of my 6 hour class. I'm always so busy! I badly need to do laundry and to try to work out a bit. I'm going to try to do part of a work out video. I don't want to do anything to strenuous b/c I still have a cough a little bit.

Ordered two books off Amazon last night and I can't wait until they arrive. They both look so good and at a price I can't pass up. They can not get here soon enough.

And now, I think I must have a nap. Tonight AM and I are watching movies and resting up for the Vandy game tomorrow.

A Redneck Playlist

Baby's Got Her Blue Jeans On - Mel McDaniels

Halloween Kitty....

Today I got an adorable Halloween card at work from my Mom. We own a kitty, Daphne "Roo", that is very Halloween. She is a black and orange tortishell to explain. We found this little sweetie + her litter by the side of the road the summer between 7th and 8th grade. I remember being so excited to have kittens. Her litter mates were adopted by the couple that I worked for at the restaurant all through high school. I love snail mail and the card totally brightened my day.

Another thing that brightened my day was my awesome co-worker was watching an old episode of Designing Women on YouTube when I came in this afternoon. The episode was "The Night that the Lights Went Out in Georgia"...it's a good one.

I really want to see Tyler Perry's movie Why Did I Get Married as well as The Night Is Ours with Eva Mendes.

I have been productive today and sent a nice professional looking (or so I hope) resume and cover letter to BMW today. I also spoke with old advisor at TCTC about re-enrolling and putting my name on the list for nursing. I know, I've been in school so long now and I left that to come here, but I just don't know that I have it out of my system. Before I had so many doubts about doing the clinicals (and still do have some!) but I think I am in a place now (study skills, maturity) where I could hang with it. As far as careers go I think I might want to be a nurse more than work in hotel or restuarant managment. My friend M, a doctoral candidate, told me today she thinks I would make a phenomenal nurse b/c I am caring and a good listener. She is one of my favorite co-workers anyways,but that is serious one of the nicest things anyone has ever said to me. My Mom said I can live at home while I complete the nursing program at TCTC (she enjoys it when I'm home) so I wouldn't have to worry about living expenses (housing, utilities, and some of my food for free). I think financially it will be possible due to Pell Grant and Lottery. On the other hand....dang! I'm just finishing one degree to begin another? and it takes two years once you start so will I be like 26 and still living at home with Mom?! In a way I think that is lame and in a way I could care less. See clinicals are very demanding so TCTC advises you do not have an outside job while doing them so paying my own rent would be out. I feel what I want as a career is most important though. I also have an interest in working in/around HIV/AIDS b/c I already have some familiarity from my job now and know that area interests me.

So, yeah, lots of thoughts tonight. Tomorrow:my 6 hour class and then tailgating bright and early Sat for the Vandy game...and soon I could be back in A-town enrolling at TCTC and meeting with my advisor...........wish me luck and warm wishes and prayers.....registration there is coming up soon and the class I need to enroll in fills up very quickly so I'll need to make a decision and get up there.

J says we are going to the biggest party in Charleston on Halloween and the rest is a surprise!

90's Throwback Playlist Tonight

Save the Best for Last - Vanessa Williams

Like a black cloud....

Like a black cloud, my dark mood from this morning seems to have blown over (for the most part). I had lunch with AF (you know, Frashley). It was nice. My Halloween costume has arrived and I am looking forward to my weekend with J.
I'm still having some turmoil about a situation...but this blog is public so anyone in the world could see it so I can't say much. It is a situation where I don't have a lot of information. At all. One would not want to be at one extreme and be paranoid and jealous.....but the other extreme would be naive and in the dark. Hmmm.

Already

It's just past 8 AM and already I am in a terrible mood. A teeth grinding terrible mood. I feel like I don't want to go to my classes because I hate them and my major. I should have stuck out nursing. In addition....stuff with Shawn :( Grrrrr. Damn. I want to skip and lay in my bed all day. The entire day. Maybe the rest of the day will go better, but I have a feeling if I don't change my attitute it won't.
An Angry Playlist
You Outta Know - Alanis Morisette
St. Anger - Metallica

It's Been Awhile.....

I'm back from the mountains. Shawn and I had fun. I cooked a nice meal with wine and cheese the first evening. We got in the hot tub and it was so nice to be in cool weather for a change. We went to the outlet malls in Blowing Rock the next day, where I got a red sweater from the Gap. Then we had lunch at Ruby Tuesday. That evening we both got sick and had to deal with that for the rest of the trip. We managed to go out for bbq that night, even with the illness. I haven't had much of an appetite though.

When I got back to school I went to the MD and it turns out I have bronchitis. Yuck! It hurts, too. I have an antibiotic and hopefully will be better soon. I can be grateful that this is not a bad week school/work wise so I do have a little extra time to rest.

I got some good news at the doctors office, I've lost some weight. I think it's from not having much of an appetite for about two weeks, walking a lot on campus, not eating late at night and trying to limit the fast food. I am very very happy about it! I haven't seen the 130s in a long long time....maybe like since 2005. I think it will be hard to keep from putting it back on, but I really want to stay around this size.

I am totally having Senioritis. Today is 62 days until graduation. I think in weeks it is 6 weeks, which is not long at all. I still have no clear direction about what I want to do after. I am pretty sure that since I hated my internship I do not want in a hotel or in customer service, period. I have been an assistant manager in a retail store and waitressed for several years too so I have a good idea of what customer service entails. I am pretty sure it's not for me. I may end up taking a job just becuase I need to ($), but I hope some other opportunites come my way. Tonight I had to go to an Alumni Career Night. A bunch of students had to sit and listen to alumni speak about thier post college life and career. The alumni's talks were all quick, painless, and fairly interesting. We were supposed to network and talk to them afterwards, but with the bronchitis, senioritis, and me knowing I don't want to work in this field I just left as soon as I could get out of there. The whole thing left me in a weird mood, but maybe it's just the bronchitis.

Hopefully soon I'll be over this illness and can start going to the gym again with AM. She and I went to California Dreaming yesterday and it was so good. She is always great company anyways. Afterwards she had an appt. so I headed over to EP's for the Bachelor. Fun times...

OK, right now I've got to stop blogging and do something about my toenails. I hate to neglect my feet, but right now they look awful. I don't know why I've been doing it. Laziness, I guess. It has got to stop so now I'm going to go remedy this situation. Usually I make sure my toenails are in impecable condition, as I said I don't know what's up with me!

On the playlist

Valerie - Steve Winwood

I'm Off!

I'm about to be off to Boone, NC for fall break. Right now I'm listening to my itunes, doing laundry, doing dishes, cleaning and packing. I am not capable of packing light. I envy people who are, but I like to have all my hair stuff, makeup, and clothing choices when I get to my destination. The pics are me and A at the last game, a bed I want to order from Pottery Barn (I need my big girl job first), Melissa Sue-my horse that is in retirement due to navicular disease. She earned her retirement. She has spent many a long week at 4-H camp getting the bejesus ridden out of her. She is one gorgeous horse, she won a lot for me, but was always tempermental as mares tend to be. She is probably more so than most mares. In all the years we have owned her my Mom has never been on her back b/c she is afraid of Mel's sometimes nasty tendencies. Once I was on her in a riding lesson and she got fed up with what we were doing and swiveled her head around and bit my foot while I was on her back. The last photo is sweet little Ruby.

I probably won't post for while. After the mountains I'm home for the weekend...which involves meeting up with SC and getting a haircut. I also need to spend some time with my dog, Morgan.

Have a great week!!

Playlist

Friday I'm In Love - The Cure

Dosen't Get Any Better Than This

A just sent me these pics from the Mississippi State game we went to. On the 20th we are going to Vanderbilt. I know I say this everyday on this blog but I hope it will be cooler by then. Is it global warming or what? It is not fun.

The girl cock with Cocky is his girlfriend, Cockette. She only comes out for Homecoming. Is she adorable or what?

Pumpkin Spice and Everything Nice.....

The weekend was good, but busy. I went home for my Mom's birthday on Friday. We went to the football game at the high school where she teaches. This is also the high school I attended. We brought our chihuahua (my "sister") along with us and everyone thought she was adorable. We sat with some teachers I knew and had a good time (or as good a time as you can have at a high school football game). Some students got into a big brawl and the police came so that was a lot of drama to watch. It was really ghetto so we left shortly after that.


Saturday Mom and I went to the sale that is going on at Express and a few other stores in the mall. I got some new things; two new purses, a black pencil skirt, black capri pants, a going out top, a sweater and a purple satin shirt. Now I will have more stuff to where on the days I do dress up for work and to wear on the job interviews I will hopefully be going on soon.


Last night I spent the night with AM. We didn't do too much (I had a test this morinig to study for). We ate popcorn and watched The Girls Next Door and had lots and lots of girl talk.


Today after class and work AM and I went to the Columbiana Mall. She needed to black dress and found an adorable one that looked great on her. I got a Spiced Pumpkin candle from Yankee Candle Company, some items from Victoria's Secret, a small surcee to give Shawn in the mountians and foundation from Benefit. I love Benefit and got the Playstick foundation which feels super light but makes your face look very flawless and smooth and velvety. The color I got it in is Tea Party.

That reminds me, I ordered my Halloween costume. I decided on Alice in Wonderland. It is so so cute! This is the actual one I ordered. I am not going to wear the stockings even though they come with the costume because I can't stand them. I will probably wear panty hose and then boy shorts on over them since it is sort of short. I will have to do some try ons and decide if nude or black panty hose looks better. I'll also get a black headband. I think it is adorable. I am going to visit J in Charleston that weekend. We are going to go out in Charleston in our costumes for Halloween. She is going to be a bumble bee.

In addition to everything else I did over the weekend there were issues with Ruby. She got an abcess in her hoof, then apparently the fence shorted out and she got out of the paddock while we were gone to Panera and grocery shopping, then when we came home to discover this she had also banged up her leg pretty bad. The swelling went down the hyrotherapy (the waterhose) and ice. It was stressful but she is ok now. Note to self, I need to find the time to work with her on her ground manners. She's a sweet filly and adores attention and being groomed, but is less than cooperative for anything new or that she might not be sure she wants to do. Horses are pretty huge so it's imperative that they have good ground manners, otherwise they can really drag you around.

Tonight I'm headed over to E's to watch the Bachelor. Some of those girls have had no raising...tacky! It is so addictive.

I have more laundry than is fathomable to do right now before I can pack for my trip over fall break. I need to pack tomorrow night since I am leaving right after classes on Wednesday.

Playlist
Smooth Criminal - Michael Jackson

Heavenly Day

Today has been an awesome day. I was up very very late preparing for the marketing test and visiting with Shawn. I got up at 7 and went to take the test at 8. I prepared enough because I knew all the answers. Such a good feeling. After the test I came back to the apartment and Shawn was starving. We walked to IHOP and had a yummy breakfast. I had scrambled eggs with tomato, green pepper and mushrooms and strawberry pancakes. I almost got pumpkin pancakes for fall, but thought they sounded too risky. Maybe next time. After breakfast I crashed and slept deeply until around 1 PM. Then I went to work and worked all afternoon. When I got off at 5 Shawn met me in Five Points and we went for Japanese food (followed by TCBY). Now he is watching sports as I blog. We rented Knocked Up to watch tonight. Tomorrow AM he leaves ;( and I go to my 6 hour class. After, I'm at home all weekend for my Mom's birthday. I love Shawn so much. He is just so much fun to spend time with. I have never met a person like him (oh my gosh I have got to stop this right here, I sound like I am in high school). Have a great weekend!!
The In Love Playlist
Heavenly Day - Patty Griffin

I want them!!!!

These are on sale right now at Nine West. I want to get them to wear for graduation with my cap and gown (of course between now and then I will be getting a cute little black dress to wear under the gown). Aren't they devine? So femine and pretty. I must have them. I will just die if I don't get them. Since they are on sale I hope my Mom is feeling generous and buys them for me. Nothing would make me happier.

Tonight I am getting a visitor! I expected him to come in the morning but he will be arriving later tonight! I can't wait. The visitor is Shawn, by the way. It is 1 PM right now...I've been up studying. Didn't work out or eat very well today so tomorrow I have to make up for that. Which, by the way, is hard to do with Shawn around. I'm not complaining, I love going on dates, but it is so hard to be healthy when you have a boyfriend and are always going on dinnner dates. B had touched on this topic earlier making the point of saving money. Going out for nice dinners adds up fast. I guess what I'm saying is it adds up fast in more ways than one!!

Playlist

I Can't Help Falling In Love - Elvis

Productivity...

It's been a productive few days. I stay so busy...but I talk about my to-do list all the time so I'll spare you. My guess is most adults are as busy as I am. I'm going home this weekend for my Mom's birthday. I got her a supercute top from Express. Then it's back to school for a few days then fall break and my trip to the mountains. Yay! I'm also getting my hair trimmed on the Saturday of fall break. It needs it.
I'm trying to coordinate another fun weekend with my good friend and former roommate, J. She is just as busy as I am in addition to working weekends (which I don't) so it hasn't been easy so far. We are trying to do something the weekend before Halloween (in which case dressing up would be involved). If she can't get off that weekend then it looks like it will be around the 17th of November before we can meet up. I'm hoping for sooner rather than later!
I think I have decided on the firefighter costume for Halloween. My hair isn't blonde enough for Alice in Wonderland and I'm also concerned about how short it might be. Last year I was Paris Hilton one night and a cop the next. The year before I didn't dress up at all :( and the year before that I was a french maid( OMG time flies...). I've been a cat before also. The firefighter costume is a dress. It is sexy, but not overly risque. I'm going to order it on payday and I can't wait. Now I just need to figure out what shoes I'm wearing with it.
I need to go study for a test tomorrow AM. I also have two more classes today.
On The Playlist
Everyday I Write the Book - Elvis Costello

For Inspiration...

I have been a little overwhelmed today. LOTS of work to do, but I'm getting it done. I got the grade for my summer internship back today and I made an A so all my hard work is paying off. Now, if I can just find the right job for me.
I know everyone already knows this poem from like 8th grade english...but it's a good one so I'm posting it for today.


Robert Frost (1874–1963). Mountain Interval. 1920.

1. The Road Not Taken


TWO roads diverged in a yellow wood,
And sorry I could not travel both
And be one traveler, long I stood
And looked down one as far as I could
To where it bent in the undergrowth;


Then took the other, as just as fair,
And having perhaps the better claim,
Because it was grassy and wanted wear;
Though as for that the passing there
Had worn them really about the same,

And both that morning equally lay
In leaves no step had trodden black.
Oh, I kept the first for another day!
Yet knowing how way leads on to way,
I doubted if I should ever come back.

I shall be telling this with a sigh
Somewhere ages and ages hence:
Two roads diverged in a wood, and I—
I took the one less traveled by,
And that has made all the difference.